There are so many emotions Im filled with as I write this.. Part of me is proud, part content, part happy, part sad, part sorry and part looking ahead for next year.

Yes mixed emotions would be right to describe how I feel right now. One thing is for sure this blog has helped me manage (Or lets say vent) my emotions.

2009 was a year I rebuilt my company from zero to a 14 people company. Recession had left its marks and two of them were the marks from the stitches on my hand which I banged against a glass wall when I had to lay off people in my company in 2008. Going 2 steps back after you have just taken 1 step forward is a painful exercise and I did it and I lost my cool. Overall the learning was great. I guess pain and suffering makes you a better human being and I came out a better human being from that exercise.

2009 was also the year I attended and conducted my own events. Met a lot of people and heard their stories, ambitions and plans. I must admit as life moves on and I do more of one thing at my work Im starting to become cynical. I guess knowing a lot of something is as bad as knowing little or maybe worse.

2009 was also the year I made fewer friends. Yes.. while my career rocked I made fewer friends in 2009. I committed myself to my work and the people it required me to deal with and thats that. Somewhere Im lonelier than I was or maybe the same that I was in 2008. How do I feel? Not great but I guess one learns to accept. One of the things I learnt is acceptance is a great way of letting go and also of letting things be.

All in all 2009 was a year i worked very hard, sold a lot of stuff, met a lot of people but it wasn’t a beautiful year.

It was a year that passed away too quickly without me having any special moments that I will remember forever. And someone offlate told me that its better to be a billionaire of moments than a billionaire with lots of money..

Hope Ill be able to change that in 2010.

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