Dreams we all have them.. Some are fulfilled and that feels awesome.. some aren’t and those ones always bring you down.. Cant I have everything I want? Do I really need to compromise to get one thing over another?
Well just saw a movie rock on and made me wonder if I had become like farhan akhtar the lead band singer turned investment banker who was living his life in a mechanical way.. Was I doing the same thing living my life in a mechanical way? What happened to my dancing for which I was known for throughout school and somewhat in college? (I blew my chances in college with my good for nothing ego!)
What happened to that spark? I was such a great guy to be with in school in the 6th std (long time i know) but all chics thought i was a star.. Dun know what happened? Maybe I cared too much about what others said especially those insignificant others who aren’t even your friends and never will be! I thinK I also took myself too seriously and not what I want seriously!
But what did I want? I wanted to dance.. yes it made me complete in someway.. It was magic! Also in college I had directed a short film! it was the best project we worked on..! The was surely some magic!
I was always creative.. even today the thrill of creating something be it a marketing strategy, blog design or a company is very exciting to me!
Where did all that creativity go? Did I kill it? Did I compromise with it? Not yet.. But yes I do feel like the way Farhan akhtar felt in the movie.. I need to rediscover my passions and all that defined me beyond what my work does currently..
Rajiv Dingra was a lot of things beside being a businessman.. He was the best dancer.. the funiest friend.. the most flirtacious guy.. the most exciting guy to hang with.. he was also a fitness freak.. he was also a wannabe guitar player.. A wannabe travel enthusiast.. A wannabe nature lover.. He was so much more than who I am today..
Its time to rediscover myself.. Its time to do different things and also to do things differently..

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September 3, 2008 at 7:38 pm
Navneet
Hmmmm pretty deep rajiv….. I have had such moments when I ask myself what went wrong…..mine came when I saw “The Motorcycle Diaries” but isn’t it strange that it takes us 7-8 years to get lost in the human Rat Race of careers and stability and LIC coverage for Tax Benefits, but it takes only a 90 min movie to make us realize that something’s amiss….hold on bro…….this aint a time to go through a quarter-life crisis……you are much better than that……b4 u knw it….Rajiv will be talking about converting clients in no time….
“This too shall pass”….remember
September 5, 2008 at 4:18 am
rajivdingra
Thanks Navneet Ill remember that