In Hindsight.. Yes i was a LOSER!

After living 22 years of my life and being through decent number of incidents both in personal and in professional life i can say that hindsight is much better than forsight.. This is because hindsight empowers you with realisation of what actually happened while foresight is nothing but an estimated guess of what might happen..

If given an option to choose whether to have great hindsight or foresight i would choose the former.. This is because ive learnt so much in hindsight from whatever my life has gone through in the last 22 years..

One such incident or insight that i have realised over the last two years is that i was a complete LOSER when in my last year of college. (I guess its better to feel that you were a loser in the past than present!)

Now am not the one who was the first to say this.. A person very close to my heart told me i was a LOSER when i was in my third year.  Now it did hurt a lot as it came from someone whom i loved, valued and cared for and till date the fact that i was called a loser motivates me. But in hindsight i kinda agree with this person.

I guess i had no goal or purpose to my life when in college. I fell in love with this girl and spent all my time on her and never gave her any space which made her feel suffocated and things went wrong and she called me a Loser.

In hindsight i understand what a jerk i was.. Today i wouldn’t spend even 10% of that time on someone (even if im dating.. except when im making out ;0)) because i have better things to do. Also im far more social than i was say 2 years ago..

But why i am i writing this today? Because im facing a similar problem with D ( mentioned here in my earlier post). D has become a very good friend (Cant call her girl friend yet.. ;0)) now but she keeps calling me all the time. I mean its not that i dont like good looking girls given me importance! I mean i love every bit of it! But i cant speak to anyone for too long as im a working guy now and for me work is priority no.1. Also i have many girl friends now who ask for my time. So here i am tacking an over enthusiastic chic who calls me 15 times a day cribs every time that i dont spend enough time talking to her! 

In hindsight this sounds so much like me when i was in College in third year. Just that in that case i use to crib and pester the someone (same girl who called me a loser) for their time! Damn.. now i cringe when i realise what a Jerk and a Loser i was.. If only life gave you a second chance after you have realised your mistake to make amends.. If only.. I lost that loved one at the price of learning that i was a LOSER! Nevertheless.. Moral of the story is hindsight is better than foresight..